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Catching up Part 3 – August 17 – August 21

common senseCatching Up Part 3 – August 17 -August 21

Things are starting to look a little better. We have a short window where we can actually pretend we have a life, however we must still be careful until we see what will happen two weeks from now. I am hoping and praying that everything will be back in order by then so we can do away with all of this stress and get back to living normally.

August 17, 2017 – Challenges

We all face many challenges in our lives. Some of them spiritual, some financial and some are emotional. How we handle them will have a lot do with the outcome, but in every challenge there are lessons to be learned. Today I am thankful that the Lord directs me on working through these challenges and learning the right lessons from them.

August 18, 2017 – Logic

I know for a fact that there were many times, when I was younger, that I made rash decisions. Some of them turned into catastrophes and even dangerous situations. Over the years I have learned to use logic when there are big decisions to be made. Today I am thankful that the Lord has impressed on me to be logical about the decisions in my life.

August 19, 2017 – Bricks

There are times in our lives when we feel like we are walking around with a load of bricks on our shoulders. We often feel so weighed down by them that it makes us not only emotionally and spiritually sick but physically as well. Today I am thankful when the Lord knocks those bricks off my shoulders.

August 20, 2017 – Stress

They have proven over the years that stress has a physical effect on your body, not just your mind. It can effect your heart and lungs, it can cause you to gain or lose weight, and it can make your body ache like it has never ached before. Today I am thankful that the Lord is directing me to ways that relieve a lot of this stress.

August 21, 2017 – Answered Prayers

I have heard people complain that their prayers are not answered, but what we seem to forget quite often is that God doesn’t always answer our prayers the way that we want. In stepping back and looking at some of the prayers I have sent up, I see where they were answered better than I had chosen they would be. Today I am glad that God doesn’t always answer prayers the way that I would choose.

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Catching Up – Part Two

turtle speed limitCatching Up – Part Two

The Drama with the medicine continues. Each day I am going back and forth with e-mails, phone calls and research. Our stress level has been so high that I almost had a melt down recently. I’ve wanted to write, but it seems like every moment of my day has been tied up. I am praying that things will get back to what is normal for us soon.

 

August 11, 2017 – Trusting God

We all go through trying times, times when there doesn’t seem to be a solution to a problem or problems we are facing. We pray and pray and pray and yet there seems to be no answer. God does things his way, in his time, for the best of all concerned. Today I am thankful that I have learned how important trusting God is.

August 12, 2017 – Fact or Fear

The news media is big business. Everyday there are stories that just seem to outrageous to believe. We have to be wary of what we believe, what we allow to make us fearful. We have to look inside of ourselves and ask if something can be taken as fact or is it just something to scare people. Today I am thankful for the times I can separate fact from fear.

August 13, 2017 – Patience

Things changed overnight for me when I became a Christian. I no longer desired the things from my old life. I know that many of the changes were brought about by God, not by my own doing. I have been told that I have the patience of a saint, and that is not something I practiced at. There are times I would love to lose my patience and I come very close at time, but today I am thankful for the patience that God has instilled in me.

August 14, 2017 – Holding On

Life is tough. There is no getting around it. It is during hard times that we often turn to family and friends for moral support. It is also during those times that people often get close to God and feel like they are just barely holding on. Today I am thankful to know that he is also, always holding on to me.

August 15, 2017 – Looking out the Window

I’ve lived in some nasty places in my life. Sometimes it is all that I could afford, other times it was because family members decided they didn’t want me in parts of the houses we rented together. Once I lived in a basement with glass block windows. The family room down there was my bedroom and office and it was like living in a dungeon. Today I have a house with many windows. Today I am thankful that I can just stand here looking out the window.

August 16, 2017 – Creatures

I like to research. It was what I did for a living for eleven years. I was born with a natural curiosity about things. I love the creatures that God has created. I like to look up information on the many birds that make our deck their regular dinner spot, the raccoon family that comes to visit later in the night, the possums who take up temporary residence in our garage and the mama cat with her two kittens that has recently moved in make all my days more enjoyable. Today I am thankful to be able to have so many of God’s creatures around me.

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Catching up

eagleCatching up – August 5 through August 10

I heard a pastor preach one Sunday who said that when things start going wrong in your life, when you feel burdened by more than is usual, it is an attack from Satan because he knows God is getting ready to do something big in your life and he wants to shake your faith in the Lord. I heard another pastor preach that when we come under attack it is because we are doing, to the best of our ability, what God wants us to do and Satan still wants to shake our faith. I also heard a third pastor preach that there are no demonic attacks, he didn’t believe people were attacked by Satan and his minions. Everything that happens is just because of our actions or chance.

But I believe that Satan attacks Christians as well as non Christians in every way that he can, He will use what we say against us in the form of rumors, hurt feelings and the loss of friendships and trust. He can use the loss of a friend or family member by urging everyone to fight over what is left instead of remembering the good times and love of that individual. He will use our friends, our finances, our health and even our loved ones to pull us from Christ and to turn those who are ready to turn toward Christ away.

In the years that I have been a Christian, I have been under attack, several times, but I never let it shake my faith. Some attacks were worse than others and some not so bad at all. There have been times that I have questioned God about why certain things happened or why I would have to go through what ever I was going through at the time. Mostly I would pray that he would allow me to have the strength to make it through and allow me to learn something from the experience. We are promised that God will not let us go through more than we can handle, and sometimes he does that by giving us the tools to handle what we are going through.

I haven’t been writing for some time because we have been under attack for the last several months, not because I am giving up on this. My minutes, hours and days have been filled with countering these attacks. It started a few months ago, when the insurance tried to deny payment for a medication that Richard has to have, it is life threatening if he doesn’t get it. No sooner was that finally taken care that the company making the medicine shut down for unknown reasons.

So we have spent the last few months sitting by the phone, making phone calls, doing research, sending e-mails, reading e-mails, talking back and forth to the insurance company, the manufacture of the medicine, the distributor of the medicine, the doctors office and the pharmacist at the hospital and manufacturers of other drugs as well.  I can’t even describe the amount of stress it has put us under, but we haven’t lost faith, and we continue to pray for a good outcome.

In the meantime, since my time is filled up with all this, and we are not out of the woods yet, I haven’t been able to sit down and take time to write. What I am going to do in the interim, since I still list every day something to be thankful for, each day as I can, I will list a few. I will include a sentence or two as to why I am thankful for that particular thing, and I will list a few a day until I am caught up. At some point in time I will come back and embellish on those thankful subjects. In no way, shape or form will I give this up, I will not let Satan steal my joy

August 5, 2017 – Chaotic Days

We all have chaotic days. Days, where nothing seems to go right from morning until night, days where no matter what we do, it all seems to fail. Today I am thankful that the Lord has taught me to how to handle these chaotic days.

August 6. 2017 – Right On Time

Haven’t you ever been surprised by super days, days where you wake up and find out that a prayer has been answered right on time? Today I am thankful for a God who is always right on time.

August 7, 2017 – Energy

It is a proven medical fact that as we get older, our energy fades. We can no longer run the marathons of life as we did when we were young. Today I am thankful for those days when I actually seem to have some extra energy.

August 8, 2017 – Avalanche

Have you ever watched an avalanche? Maybe on TV, where they show one happening in the mountains, where snow is just coming down in truckloads and burying everything? Have you ever been near a rock slide? It is pretty much the same effect. Life will sometimes dump avalanches on us and today I am thankful the Lord helps me dig out of every one.

August 9, 2017 – Waiting On

We lived a very fast paced life today, It is hurry and scurry to get here and there, to get this done or arrive at that destination at a certain time. But sometimes the hurrying and scurrying comes to a stand still and we don’t know what to do. Those are the days we discover that we have to wait on God. Today I am thankful for waiting on God, for he brings the best to us when we wait.

August 10, 2017 – Test of Faith

Every day is a test of faith. Between all the hustle and bustle of this world, we are bombarded from every side with tragedies, threats and temptations. It is during those times that we need to hold firmly to our faith. Today I am thankful that I can pass theses tests of faith.

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Belief and In Gods Hands

bibleAugust 3, 2017 – Belief

Everyone believes in something, even an atheist because they believe there is no God. There are so many different beliefs in this world today that it is hard to keep track of them. It seems that something new is always being added. Besides Christianity, Satan Worship, you also have Hinduism, Islam, Wicca. Agnosticism, Atheism, Celtic Paganism, Confucianism, and Mysticism and Ancestor worship, just to mention a few.

Christians believe in a God they cannot see in physical form, but he shows himself in so many ways in this world he created. Just take a drive in the country on Spring or Fall day or stare at a starry sky at night, and then tell me this was world was all an accident.

Many of these religions involve praying to a man-made statue or deity, rituals that need to be performed at different times of the year, and sacrifices, sometimes animal and in some, human sacrifices. Others believe in some form of meditation to lead them to a spiritual level above their human form and still some believe that the earth is a form of life that should be cared for and worshiped.

I believe in the trinity, God the father, Jesus the son, and the Holy Spirit. I’ve seen too many miracles and had too many prayers answered and all without trying to meditate to get to another spiritual level and all without any rituals or sacrifices.

Today I am thankful that every day the Lord increases my belief in him

Hands holding the worldAugust 4, 2017 – In Gods Hands

For much of life, depending on where I lived or who lived with me, all problems that needed to be solved fell on my shoulders. I had gotten to the point where it was effecting my health. I couldn’t sleep at night because I couldn’t get my mind to shut down, always thinking about and trying to find solutions to everyone’s problems.

Even when I became a Christian, I found it hard to realize that I didn’t have to do it all, it wasn’t all my responsibility and much of it was really out of my hands. I couldn’t cure anyone, I wasn’t a millionaire and couldn’t everyone’s bills, I couldn’t mend other relationships, and I couldn’t make people behave the way they needed to.

I wasn’t responsible for the problems that other people created for themselves. I wasn’t responsible for their bad decisions. I could lecture, I could demand, I could threaten but no one was going to change unless they wanted to or were forced through circumstances to change. It took me awhile to realize all this and today I am thankful that I can put a lot of the problems and challenges in this life in Gods hands.

 

 

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Methotrexate Days, Lower Bills, Deliverance and Doubts

sad-smileyJuly 30, 2017 – Methotrexate Days

Earlier this Spring I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. It took several months and a lot of my own research to find out that I had it. They keep diagnosing me with other problems like gout and turf toe until I did the research and told them what blood work to run.

I have to travel about 30 miles away to go the rheumatologists in Appleton City. Rich’s mom has been taking me because the car needs some work and we don’t want to risk taking it out of town right now. My doctor out there is very knowledgeable about the disease, he even teaches on it at different colleges.

He put me on low dose steroids, anti-inflammatory meds and methotrexate. At first I was afraid to take the methotrexate because it is also used as a chemotherapy drug for cancer treatment, but at much higher dose. I don’t like to the fact that I have to put chemical compounds in my body to treat my illnesses but unfortunately there is no natural cure for most of them.

While I know that the steroids are not good for me, I am on such a low dose that the side effects have not been that hard to handle. I get the heart flutters once in awhile, it sometimes disrupts my sleep, I get a little edgy sometimes but for the most part I have gotten pretty used to it. I’m praying that eventually that will be one of the medications they will eliminate.

The methotrexate is another whole matter. It takes three days to get past the side effects. The first day is the nausea and general yuckiness. The second day is the overwhelming fatigue and headache and the third day is the mouth ulcers, tenderness and jaw pain. But I make it through. I know no exactly what is going to happen and when and can prepare for the outcome. Today I am thankful that the Lord allows me to make it through these days now without much hassle.

laughterJuly 31, 2017 – Lower Bills

Living on a fixed income has never been an easy thing to do. At first I thought it would be easy, knowing exactly what you had coming in each month and knowing what you needed to spend on what bills. There would no longer be any worry about whether I had any sick or personal days left. I no longer needed to worry about getting my work in on time or whether I would need to ask for overtime.

While the amount I get each month is way below what is considered poverty levels, I have learned a lot about budgeting and stretching that income. I have changed the way I use power in the house, turning off every little thing I can if it isn’t being used, but still the bills climb higher when the air is used or when the furnace is used. I’ve changed the way I buy groceries and I have learned to recycle and reuse many things. All in all, it hasn’t been that bad.

This summer was an odd one. The end of June and the whole month of July seemed hotter than August usually is, so we ended up having to use the air conditioner more often, even at night which was something we rarely did in the past. I was expecting a huge climb in rates and was regretting opening the next bill when it arrived. I was pleasantly surprised to see that not only did it not climb higher, but it was lower than the month before. Today I am thankful for lower bills.

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Christ of the Ozarks, Eureka Springs, Arkansas

August 1, 2017 – Deliverance

I am so surprised at myself, in fact I am disappointed in myself, extremely so. This subject should have been the very first one that I wrote on when I started my “thanksgiving” articles. Besides saving me, allowing me to become one of his children, it is the next most important thing that the Lord has ever done for me.

When I think about the word deliverance, a whole list pops into my mind, because there are so many different times that he delivered me from something, some are small but there are some major ones that I cannot claim to have done myself.

Before I even accepted Jesus, truly accepted him because I don’t count the altar call I went up to in fourth grade as being the day I was born again. It was just an emotional response to everyone else in the church crying, praising and going up to the altar. I just followed the crowd, he delivered me from an almost twenty year abusive situation.

Then he sent a small child to invite me to church and it was shortly after that I became a born again child of God. Immediately after the first time I went with that child to church, before I asked him into my heart, he delivered me from drugs, cocaine in fact and alcohol. I can remember the day. It was New Years Day 1993.

I had gone to the bar with friends as I normally did. I was offered the drugs but refused, and I didn’t drink much. It just didn’t seem to have an appeal to me anymore. I never did drugs or alcohol after that day. Those were huge episodes of deliverance and they were of God, not of my own doing. Not only that, I never suffered any withdrawal symptoms from the drugs or alcohol. It was the next weekend that I accepted Christ.

He has delivered me from a dead end job by sending one of my sisters from church to ask me if I would come to work for them. He delivered me from injury or death on several occasions by urging me to stay home from my on the road job and I would see later that there had been a horrible accident right where I would have been at that time.

He delivered me from uterine cancer by allowing the doctors to find it early and remove it all in one operation. I can’t even count the times he has delivered me and I know there will probably be many more. I can even think of times when I am sure that he delivered me from different forms of evil. Today I am thankful, most thankful for his deliverance from all of this and more.

Jesus with children 2August 2, 2017 – Doubts

I don’t know of any person, alive or gone, in my life, that hasn’t had doubts in their life. Many people, including myself experience doubts every day. It can be small doubts “I doubt if the weather will cooperate” or it can me much bigger doubts like “I don’t think they will last the night”. We doubt the news, we doubt the weather reports, and we even have our doubts about certain people.

Our world is not a perfect world. If it were we would never be filled with doubts. We would know that everything would work like it needs to, people would act and respond like they should, everything would fall into place and all things would work perfectly together. No, we will eventually live in a world with out doubt after Jesus returns, but until then we have to live with our daily doubts.

I’ve learned over the years that allowing too many doubt to clutter your thoughts can bring your mood down, fill you with dread, worry and stress that is unnecessary. It can take over your whole day, all of your thoughts and cause such unbelievable anxiety if you allow it to.

I have my doubts, I won’t claim not to because I would be lying, but when a doubt comes to mind I try to push it out or I try to look at it logically to see if there is a legitimate reason for it to eat up my thoughts for the whole day. More often than not, I realize that in this world, things don’t always work the way you want them to. I’ve also learned that the doubts that enter my mind are usually not worth worrying about so I try not to let them linger.

Today I am thankful that there is one I don’t ever have any doubts about, Jesus

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It Feels Like Fall, People to Love, People Who Love Me, and No Pain

the four seasonsJuly 26, 2017 – It Feels Like Fall

Our weather has been somewhat weird for several years. There are times I can walk out on the front porch and it seems more like fall than summer, then the next day it’s back up in the 90’s. I remember the first year I lived in Butler, there was plenty of snow that winter, now, the last couple years, we have had more rain than snow, in fact for the last two years we had snow for one day and the threat of an ice storm that we never got.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind milder weather, but it seems like the seasons are going to extremes one way or another. This summer was extremely hot, especially in June and July and then August which is usually the hottest month of the year is mild, more like fall than summer.

Leaves are already falling off the trees and birds and animals are changing their habits. Winter may be coming early, however the monthly predictions show us having temperatures ranging from high 79’s to mid 80’s until the middle of October.

Wet winters are especially rough on my joints, with osteoarthritis and rheumatoid arthritis and chronic migraines I am a walking, talking barometer. I can pretty accurately forecast the weather day by day during the Winter time just by how I feel.

June and July were almost unbearably hot and humid that today I am thankful that it feels like fall.

Genesis 8:22″While the earth remains, Seedtime and harvest, And cold and heat, And summer and winter, And day and night Shall not cease.”

loveJuly 27, 2017 – People to Love

For a good part of my life, I wasn’t sure what love was. I knew that there some people I liked being around more than others, and some who like being around me, but there were a lot of “users” in my life that tolerated or just put up with me for what they might gain, financial help, babysitter, housekeeper or punching bag.

When I finally turned back to God, I saw things change very rapidly in my life, and when I look back to where I was compared to where I am today, I can definitely see the levels I went through, the lessons I learned and the journey he brought me through to where I am today.

Because of my past, for a long time, I didn’t know how to love. I loved my son, but even looking back I don’t think I was capable of loving him the way I should have because I didn’t know love. Torn from my mother when I was 7, and looking back I don’t see where any love was really shown by her or my dad.

Don’t get me wrong, I did love my mom but she was removed from my life when I was 7 and I didn’t know her anymore when we went home from the foster homes. I got to spend 5 years with her before she was gone again and then I never got to see her anymore. During that time, we did develop a stronger bond, but I don’t think she knew how to show or accept love either.

I didn’t know how to love people until I completely accepted Christ and then I found that I was capable of loving so many, so deeply, it was a whole new experience with me. Today I have people around me that I love, and many people scattered across the country that I love. Today I am thankful for people to love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away

heartsJuly 28, 2017 – People Who Love Me

I’ve mentioned before that in y earlier years, I didn’t experience much love, I wasn’t even sure what love felt like. Over the years, since I gave myself to Jesus, I have learned to love and therefore have also learned a lot about heartbreak. My sisters and I were separated for many years after we became adults. I didn’t see one of them for 33 years and the other was away from me for 18 years.

Since 1993, when I gave my heart to Jesus he has put so many people in my life that have genuinely loved me. When I married Ken, I learned even more about what it means to love someone and to have them love you. When I started living with my grandchildren, watching them be born and bonding with them in the early years, I found out what unconditional love felt like.

Today I am amazed at the friends and relatives that I have around me. It seems like my family just continues to grow, not just with relatives and friends but with many brothers and sisters in Christ who truly do love me.

Today I am so thankful to have so many people who love me.

Romans 13:8 Owe no one anything, except to love each other, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law.

laughterJuly 29, 2017 – No Pain

I know so many people who suffer from chronic pain. From the minute they get up in the morning until they go to bed at night, they hurt. Some of them are often awakened in the middle of the night with these chronic pain conditions.

Several of them have gone from being very active to being in an almost crippled state because of the pain they feel. Some of them became addicted to drugs because of the large doses of pain killers they took to try and ease that pain.

I have several conditions that cause pain. On most days there is usually something that hurts, my head, my feet, my back, my shoulders or other areas of my body. Some of the pain is caused by the different diseases I suffer like Chronic Migraines, Osteoarthritis, Rheumatoid Arthritis, or gout. Unfortunately some of the medications I take can cause an increase in the migraines.

I already suffer from PTSD and depression. The depression often gets worse when I go for several days without a break in the pain, but oh, the days when I wake up without pain, it is like I entered a new life for a small period of time. Today I am thankful for the days that I have no pain.

Romans 8:17-18 And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later

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Lesser of Two Evils, Forgiveness of Thoughts, Boring Days

oldman prayingJuly 23, 2017 – Lesser of Two Evils

Every American can register vote. This last election has made more news that any other election in the past. It seems that our country just can’t get together on what is right for the country. There has been threats, threats of violence, protests and even small pockets of violence over the last two elections.

I haven’t voted in a long time because I haven’t found enough of what I believe this country needs any of the candidates for many years. Every candidate makes huge promises, trying to appease everyone and promising everything from A to Z.

What many people don’t realize is that whoever our potus is, there is a limit to his power, even though it may not be evident, he can only do so much on his own. Sure, he has the power to veto, but even that power can be overridden by senate and congressional votes if the majority deems it necessary. He has a lot of power in his hands but if/when it comes down to the safety of our country, I mean really comes down to it, there are ways that can be used to curb that power. The sad fact is that too many people are so worried about keeping their jobs that they aren’t even doing their jobs.

This time and the last time it seems as if the President has more power than all the previous presidents. It’s hard to believe in any of the News Networks anymore because they are/were biased in different directions. Some of them siding with Democrats, others with Republicans or Tea party. I’m not sure how much of the truth is really revealed, therefore I am not sure exactly how much power our president really has.

When I watch or read the news it’s almost like I am looking at a soap opera instead of national and realistic news and views. There are many fake news sites on the internet now that you just aren’t sure who is really being honest or how much they really know of what is going on.

The last year I voted, I was talked into it by a few Christian friends of mine and it wasn’t hard to see that the wrong person was put into office shortly after they were elected. I was told, in one conversation to just accept that I had voted for the lesser of two evils.

Our country has been desperate for good leadership for so long I’m not sure we would recognize it we ever really had the correct person in office. But I have felt for many years and I am sure the Lord is the one telling me that when it comes down to evil, it isn’t alright to lean toward the lesser of two of them. Today I am thankful that he has taught me that evil is evil, whether it is lesser than another evil, it is still evil.

older woman prayingJuly 24, 2017 – Forgiveness of Thoughts

We were born with a sin nature. As we grow, we learn more about that as we learn more about the people who surround us. Not everyone is raised the same way. Not everyone is a Christian and not every Christian is completely honest about their sins, except maybe to God.

Sadly there are many who believe that as long as they repent, they can keep on sinning, the same sins over and over again, but there is a huge difference between purposely sinning and accidentally sinning. I’m not sure, and only God knows for sure, what the rules are for someone who claims to be a Christian but commits sins on purpose because they believe they can repent and repeat, repent and repeat.

There are those who commit some sins that they have a hard time getting away from, such as an alcoholic or drug addict. God knows their hearts just as he knows the heart of the person who cheats at their company or on their income tax, repents, and then purposely repeats it because they believe that’s the way it works.

Outward sin is soon obvious to many people. When they see you doing the same dishonest things over and over again and yet put on that “I’m a perfect Christian” attitude, they are less likely to want to follow your example.

Whether we want to accept it or not, even if we try to be an example and not show that outward sin, we still, all of us, sin in our thoughts. The minute we think something bad about someone, the minute we become silently angry with someone, the minute we think we are better than others, we have sinned.

The minute that we think jealous thoughts about a person, lust after another persons mate or possessions or even think of ways to get around a problem illegally or secretly, we have sinned. The moment that we think someone is too fat, too skinny, too ugly, wears too much make up, we have sinned.

Even though we may try to control all of these thoughts, it is often hard to do because we were born with that sin nature and we live in a society that daily belittles, insults, gossips and lies about people and situations. Sometimes it seems that we sin more in thought than in deed. Today I am thankful that the lord let me know when I have sinned in thought and need to repent and work harder at having pure and clean thoughts.

sleeping kittyJuly 25, 2017 – Boring Days

When I was a kid, I very rarely had trouble finding something to do, but there were those rare hot summer days, when no one was around and I was tired of reading. There were those days that no matter how far or how long I walked I couldn’t find any of my friends.

Those were the boring days. My mom would be taking her nap with my little sister, my older sister, who rarely wanted anything to do with me was off with her friends somewhere and all of my friends were gone off with their family.

I would walk for awhile, but eventually came back home. Pueblo, at that time, was a very small and quiet town, and on some summer weekends it was like a ghost town, especially on Sundays when everything was closed because they still had what they called “the blue laws” back then.

I would eventually end up sitting on the front porch, possible with several cats curled up in my lap, staring off into the sky, or just listening to the silence, alone with my thoughts, and sometimes I would doze off in that chair.

I haven’t had many boring days since my childhood. I’ve worked jobs that required extra hours or weekend shifts. I’ve lived with other families where some how or another, I ended up having to take care of everything and do every bit of running around that needed to be done.

There aren’t many boring days around here. It seems that no matter how hard we try to keep things calm, something arises to set us on edge, causing us to worry, maybe make a bunch of phone calls to get some things straightened out.

Other days, almost every other day we go to the hospital for Rich’s medicine or we have to refill on milk, bread and other items we run out of, or we need to make an ER visit, or we end up in heated conversations on FB with other friends and scattered family, sometimes trying to help them solve their problems long distance.

Every so often, though, there is a boring day, a day where I did my chores the night before, a day when we need nothing from the store or there is no hospital visit or doctors appointment, a day when everyone seems to be getting along and there is no drama with friends and family and no emergencies. Today I am thankful for those boring days.