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Writers Block

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All writers experience writers block from time to time. Whether they are writing a script for a movie, working on a book, or writing an article for the news. Sometimes words don’t click in our brains the way we want them to and we end up with a piece that doesn’t say what we want or turns into a long, dragged out mini book that is boring.

I write. It’s what I do when the Lord inspires me to. When I was working on the 366 days of Thanksgiving, I would have the list in front of me for that day, but not always was time on my side. While some of the “thankful’s” explained clearly what I was thankful for on that day, others that were too quickly written sounded dull and boring.

I haven’t written for awhile because I have been slammed with an extensive case of “writers block”. I have a few articles in the works but they are way below the standards that I set for myself so until I can figure out how to rearrange them or reword them, they will sit in the “later” file.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe I live a very blessed life. It took me years to learn how truly blessed I was. It took me years to realize, that even when I was walking through the darkest, blackest valley in my life, Jesus was right there next to me, making sure that I didn’t go through more than I could handle, making sure that I would make it through.

There is so much light in my life now. I am no longer the “woe is me” person that I was many years ago. I may not be rich in material things and some months, the month outlasts the money, but we always make it through and I have learned not to stress over it.

This light that I talk about doesn’t come from the sun or a lamp or any artificial source. It comes from the people around me that the Lord has put in my path. I am so surrounded with this light, the love of those near me that sometimes I feel like my heart will burst.

And that’s what it really is all about. When you’ve accepted Jesus and start living the way he prescribes, it becomes easier and easier to leave the stress behind, no matter what may be happening, whether you are on top of the mountain or in the valley. It’s called having faith. It’s called trusting in the one who saved you. It’s called love. 1 Corintians 13:13 “ and now abide faith hope and love, these three, but the greatest of these is love.

I am ever so thankful for the Lord, for teaching me how to love and be loved, by showing me that in this corrupt and evil world there is a way to find peace. I talk with him daily and while there are no levine flashes or thunderbolts or burning bushes, he answers me. He answers me with love and peace and direction. He puts in my path the people who can help, or those that I can help, those that love me and I love them.

I know eventually that I will get past this case of “writers block” and will get back to writing more often than I have been, but in the meantime I must practice patience and wait on the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31 -“but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”

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We spend a lot of our life opening, closing and going through doors. Think about it. We go in and out the front and back doors of our house. We walk through office and business doors, doors on churches, schools, libraries, grocery stores, neighbors houses and those of relatives. How many times a day do we open and close our car doors?

If we are kind and caring, we may often open and hold doors for friends, relatives, children, the elderly, the disabled or just the person behind us. A true gentleman always opens and holds the door for his wife, girlfriend, mother, mother-in-law or any other woman in his presence. He will also show the respect of holding open the doors for his parents and grand parents.

God opens doors for us all of our lives. Doors to different levels like enabling us to walk through to a better job, get medical treatment we need, or buy a house. He will open doors that lead us to the love of our life, the house we always wanted or a spiritual need we have.

Often, in our rush through our daily lives, we miss those doors and go through one of our choosing that sometimes ends up being catastrophic or stressful, but further down the path of life, he will present the right door again, at the right time after we have learned not to ignore the doors he presents to us.

Sometimes he will open doors for us that we have asked for in prayer if he determines that they are the right doors for us to go through. If you are asking for a door to be opened for a selfish reason, you more than likely will find that door locked.

Matthew 7:7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.

There is one door he will not open on his own. Because he gave us free will, allowed us to make our own choices, that door remains closed until you open it yourself. It is the door to your heart. He stands at that door and knocks :

Revelation 3:20 ‘Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me

Will you open the door?

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It was time for vacation bible school. I got off the bus from work, walked around the corner and got on the church bus to start picking up kids to take to church. I didn’t stop at home and change clothes or eat dinner before, there wasn’t time. That could wait. We were running about 70 on my bus and over 40 on the small bus, so we were bringing in over 100 kids from poor neighborhoods that probably would never have been in church if it wasn’t for our bus ministry.

The one evening we got to the church a little earlier than usual so while the kids were upstairs having a snack, I went in to see if the sanctuary needed any picking up before it was full of kids. I passed by the Pastors office as he was printing something out.

He was printing out appreciation awards for those who had volunteered this year. He had just run out of the forms and told me he didn’t get one printed for me so he would when he got more forms in and I told him, I wasn’t doing this for some kind of reward, I was doing it for the kids and Jesus. He smiled and said he already had that feeling about me. I guess some of the people who volunteered needed to know that they did something good, they wanted some form of recognition, no, in fact, some of them expected some form of recognition.

It kind of reminds me of 9th grade. The school I went too handed out awards for Merit Roll, Citizenship, Honor Roll, and a few other things at every six week grading period. They were handed out in home room because a ceremony would take up too much of the day. They were in the form of Ribbons and you were given a safety pin and expected to wear them on your clothes for the rest of the day.

I usually had them all and I was embarrassed to walk around like that. First, because I was doing what I was expected to do. I was learning and behaving myself, and second, I felt that some students felt bad because I got all these ribbons and they got few or none. Yes, I was nerdy and I loved learning but I did not expect any kind of reward for doing what I was supposed to do.

I don’t have expectations of being recognized for doing what I am supposed to do. Sadly there are people who expect that pat on the back, that mention in the Newspaper or that special gift of appreciation, even some Christians who don’t seem to remember that we are do what we are supposed to do to help other without expectations of some kind of recognition or reward.

The bible states in 1 Corinthians 16:14 Everything you do should be done lovingly. (ISV)

I’ve been poor most of life and it’s been no big deal to me. I’ve learned how to make do with what I have. I’ve also been comfortable part of my life and when I did have money, it seems that everyone else needed it more than I did. I’d rather be poor than rich. If we have to go through the tribulation before Christ comes back “as some people believe”, it will be the poor who survive because that is what they have had to do all of their lives.

So, if you see someone in need or hear that small quiet voice urging you to help someone, do it out of their necessity, out of kindness, out of your love for you fellow man and out of love for Jesus. Don’t have any expectations of reward or recognition, just be satisfied that you are doing what Jesus said we are to do and be happy that you were able to help someone.

Luke 6:34-35And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.

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Yes, it is actually a word. I didn’t think it was, I thought it was something that someone made up, but the online dictionary defines it as “to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate”. I think this pretty much describes what has been going for quite awhile.

This is the reason I haven’t written for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, I have a whole list sitting in front of me of subjects that I feel I should write about, but for the last few weeks it seems that when I decide to write, things start getting discombobulated.

So, is it an outright attack from Satan? That is possible or it could just be one of those levels we all have to go through from time to time when things seem to get out of hand. I have to say, at the least, the last few weeks have worn me out. It seems that even on a “free day” (ones that wouldn’t normally have a run to the store, no doctors appointments and “thank God” no ER visits) something interferes with being able to sit down and write.

It’s almost like time has been slipping away. I finally think I have a few moments to write and take a look at clock and it’s time for bed because we have an early morning appointment the next day and I cannot function unless I get at least 6 hours of sleep.

Just when I would think things were calming down, we would have to run to the store because we were out of something, or we were up late the night before and end up sleeping later than usual, or our medical and/or physical problems start acting up. I have sat down, I don’t know how many times to write and the computer would freeze up and I couldn’t get anything done. That is so frustrating.

Other times I seem to have a plethora of calls to make concerning the ordering of medications, setting up appointments, checking on people or I have to look up a bunch of information on new conditions, medications and such. Then there is the weather. With the rain and humidity we have been having “Arthur” has been acting up and the “migraines have returned”.

I’m not making excuses, I am simply stating facts. God did not promise that life would be perfect down here. The only promise of perfection is when we get our glorified bodies in heaven and come back to rule with Jesus and even then, during the 1000 year reign, sin will creep back in and Satan will make another appearance. It will be short lived and we will then go to live permanently in heaven, oh how I look forward to that.

We are supposed to be thankful for the trials and tribulations we go through for they are often a test of faith. We are also to learn lessons from all the bad we go through. I’ve heard people over the year say that when Satan attacks it’s because God is getting ready to do something in your life or Satan is angry because you are doing what God wants you do.

I will admit that I have learned a lot in my life. Not only have I acquired patience, I have learned, for the most part to curb any feelings of hatred or anger and I have learned how to survive. After some of things that I have gone through, I don’t think there is much more that can be thrown at me that I couldn’t get through.

I thank God for my discombobulated days because they alert me to the facts that I need to do some things, like organize better, be prepared for the unexpected and it also tells me that God considers me worth testing. He’s always here with me, this I know.

How we react to this crazy life tells others a lot of what type of person we are. I want to be the type of person that God can use whether it is to show kindness, help someone or be an example to someone. If he can use me in some way to bring someone to repentance and acceptance of Jesus, then I am all for it, no matter how long or how bumpy the ride might be

Isaiah 40:28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. 

Isaiah 40:31 But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.


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Evil Imaginings

anger faceEvil Imaginings

Sometimes I abhor being human. I want so very badly to be the child of God that he wants me to be, but he made me human. He gave me free will and he gave me emotions and we live in a world of hatred, violence, immorality, and every evil device under the constant influence of Satan.

When Satan was thrown from Heaven, he was tossed down to earth, the very place that had been given to him to watch over before he rebelled against God. Along with him one third of the angels were also thrown down here and working with their master have devised so many traps and snares for man.

Not only are we at odds with other countries that could declare nuclear war on us as we could on them, but we are pitted against each other. So many innocent people are being hurt and killed in our society today that many are afraid to walk down the streets of their neighborhoods.

In the news, on a daily basis, you read about shootings, murders, robberies, abuse, innocent children being abused and killed, people disappearing, sometimes their bodies never found. We are an evil race. It has been so since the beginning of time.

We are a defensive race. We feel we must retaliate if someone betrays our trusts, hurts us or those we love physically, emotionally verbally or mentally. There are even those who think about harming others for no apparent reason other than they just dislike them.

When we argue with someone, or want revenge upon someone who has wronged us, we tend to have “Evil Imaginations”. We see in our minds eye how we can ruin someone just by gossip, how we could “get even” with them, how we could plan to physically hurt someone who hurt us, how we might turn others away from this person and yes some, actually, many think about how they could torture, abuse or kill someone.

I’m human,and I am defensive when it comes to myself and the people I love. I have participated in gossip. In the past I have had thoughts of hurting others that have hurt me. I have opened my mouth and allowed angry and bitter words to escape.

God not only sees everything we do, but he knows our very thoughts. Maybe if more people worked at following his guidelines, we could all get rid of the “Evil Imaginations” we have. Then and only then is there a chance for this world to start healing.

You may ask “what about the evil imaginations” of others? God is in control, we can only work on ourselves and pray that when we learn to forgive and love, others will follow our lead.

Psalm 64:5-6 They hold fast to themselves an evil purpose; They talk of laying snares secretly; They say, “Who can see them?” They devise injustices, saying, “We are ready with a well-conceived plot”; For the inward thought and the heart of a man are deep.

Matthew 15: 19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:

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Reason for the Season

the four seasonsA Reason for the Season

There are basically four seasons on this earth, Spring, Summer, Fall and Winter, each one supposedly lasting for 3 months. It’s hard to separate them anymore with the way the weather has been changing over the last few decades. Lately it seems as if there are two, Winter and Summer.

One of the definitions for season is “an indefinite period of time.” I believe we can go through many seasons in our lives. Some are described as childhood, adolescent, young adult, middle age and old age, but there are many other seasons we go through, each one a different length of time and different from the seasons that others go through.

Some are mild and comfortable while some are can be difficult. Some are great and some may even be dangerous. We go through a myriad of emotions in each season depending on the circumstances and events involved. We may experience a sort of euphoria or joy when everything is going good. We may experience hurt, sorrow and anger when a season is not so good.

Reason is defined as “a rational ground or motive” and many believe that there is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives. Sometimes we search for that reason, even after that season is done with. We may search for it the rest of our lives and never fully understand the reason why things happen as they do.

For example, I still think about why God allowed my son to die in the horrible fashion that he did and at such a young age. While I can reason in my mind why God took him, I still ask myself questions over and over again about God’s purpose for this. The same with my sisters death a little over a year ago.

I have to believe that we are to learn something from the seasons we go through. There is always a reason that God allows certain events to happen in our lives. We have to be open to the reasoning that there is a God given purpose to everything, we have to accept that he can turn these events into something good for someone, maybe not always ourselves, but possible someone else who needs to take a lesson from what happened.

I know, for all I have gone through in my life, all the seasons that have come and gone that I have gained a lot of knowledge and I have gained a lot of strength and most importantly, my faith in God has increased one hundred fold.

I’m in a season now that is good. I know that could change quickly because of my age, my health and the changes happening in our governments, economies and world conditions. I also know that no matter what comes my way, I will stand firm in my faith and rely on my God, my strength and knowledge to get me through

Romans 5: 1-5 1. Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2. through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4. perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Psalm 107:43 Who is wise? Let him heed to these things and consider the loving kindness of the Lord

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Cleaning Out the Closet

closetCleaning Out the Closet

Twice a year I try to clean out my closet. Unfortunately I am a bit of a hoarder. I spent so much of my early life without many clothes that I sometimes tend to go overboard, especially when I go to the thrift stores, especially the one down the street where clothes are very rarely over .25 a piece.

Usually thrift stores do not have a dressing room, so you can’t try anything on before you buy it. I have to estimate if something will fit. I will buy a few blouses, a pair of shoes, maybe a coat or two or some pants, wash them and put them in the closet. More than half the time I end up re-donating over half the items.

I haven’t been as determined to clean the closets and drawers as I used to be. I have diseases and medications that cause a lot of fatigue so I don’t always have as much energy as I want to. Besides that our schedule is mostly wrapped around visits to the doctor, infusions every other day, emergency room visits, stopping at the grocery store and then coming home to eat and lay down.

Our minds are like a closet. They can become cluttered at times with things that we just need to throw out. Events that have been disturbing, upsetting, hurtful or sad can stay up there for a very long time, until we decide it’s time to give them to God and move on.

I don’t have to tell you how hard it is to let go, especially of things that have hurt us, physically, mentally or emotionally in the past. They tend to play over and over again in our minds. Maybe a song, a smell, a sound, or something someone says brings those memories back to life. Stressful situations that may resemble something we went through in the past can bring it all to the fore front again.

Before I was a Christian, I used to practice an exercise in my mind so I could get to sleep and not keep replaying problems and situations over and over again in my mind, looking for answers and solutions that just wouldn’t come and going through a bunch of scenarios that could be the outcome of these problems.

I would picture my mind as this big, huge room with all this stuff thrown around. I would methodically go to each item and pick it up. If it was something I couldn’t take care of on my own, I would put in a file cabinet in the room to be attended to later. If it was something that was already solved, but not the way I wanted, and was still hanging around, I would throw it in the trash. If it was something that I needed to attend to soon, I would put in a to-do box.

Then I would take a broom and sweep up the scraps and take down the cobwebs off the walls. Long before I was finished, I had fallen asleep. After I became a Christian and came to understand that we are not responsible for taking care of everyone’s problem and that certain ones needed to be resolved by God, cleaning the room in my mind became much easier.

We have to evaluate everything that comes to us. Is it our problem, do we have a solution, can we actually be of help, or is this something God needs to take care of? Sometimes we need to clean out our closets and throw away the junk.

Philippians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Psalm 55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.

Matthew 7: 7-8 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.