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Landslide

I haven’t posted for quite a long time. I believe that I may be changing directions. I did finish the 366 days of Thanksgiving and I am still trying to edit and find a publisher. I quit almost midway through the next year and hopefully this new article will explain my absence in an acceptable way. I will not be doing the daily “Thanksgiving ” posts but will be writing more often and more than likely doing them a week at a time, a condensed version of the week in and among other articles that I feel I am being inspired to work. Not to worry, More of Positive morning is not going away.

Land Slide

landslideIn my early days as a Christian, I would often hear the elderly Christians talking about problems that people were going through. Many of them believed that if things were going wrong, it was Satan attacking and he was attacking because God was getting ready to bless these/this person. Satan, as I have learned over the years, loves to try and shake our faith.

He will throw every stumbling block he can in our way, using the things like Society, politics, diseases, catastrophes, peer pressure, drugs, immoral acts and habits and even things we say, things we have done in the past, our family, our friends, our health, our jobs, our homes, anything attached to us in anyway to try and get at us.

This means he will turn things around in such a matter that it sometimes feel like you are being hit with a landslide. If you are making huge mistakes, purposely turning from Gods wisdom, love and authority, then you can readily see that some of this landslide is caused by your own actions, but if you are seeking the Lord, trying your very best to live and be who he wants you to be, then, yes, it is an all out attack from the Devil.

If what they say about God getting ready to bless someone and that is why Satan is attacking, then for sure we should have a truckload of blessings coming our way, but, again, the bible doesn’t state that in so many words. There are instances in the bible where he needed permission to attack someone such as the case with Job, but for the most part he doesn’t walk up to God on any given day and ask permission. He will use everything he can possible use against the children of God.

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 1 Peter 5:8-9

Our landslide began in May, when Rich got a virus. Because of his health conditions, we were back and forth at the ER several times before he finally got over it. It took another month for him to start gaining his strength back. In July, I got the virus, and I didn’t bounce back like I used to so it was the end of August before I was back on my feet again.

September seemed like it was going to be a good month, finally, but then the company that makes the medicine he takes, suddenly shut down and quit producing without notice. So for September and most of October we sat on pins and needles, spending hours on phone calls, going back and forth with e-mails, working with representatives, the nurses, the doctors and the pharmaceutical company to try and get something in for his protection and praying and asking for prayers.

We lived like hermits, going out only when we had to, borrowing medicine, with some being donated by relatives who had extra and researching new meds only to find all their stock had been wiped out when the original company went down. We made it through even when we thought there wasn’t a chance in a million. Late October we got the phone call, production was back up, a months worth of medicine was on its way.

It wasn’t but a few days later that we were notified that Rich’s daughter had died and the landslide of emotions began a new only now in a worse way than we could have imagined. Those of you who have lost loved ones, especially children know just what a hurt to the heart this is. There are so many emotions that come with it, grief, love, hatred, revenge, guilt, just about every emotion there is will present itself without forewarning or notice and you sit there not know how or what to try and deal with first.

This is not the kind of pain that time will heal. It is the kind that you just eventually add to the burdens you already carry and hope it isn’t the straw that breaks the camels back. We are still reeling and dealing with this great loss.

It has had it’s effects, especially on Rich and he has had several attacks but to add icing to the cake, when I wanted to remain strong and help him, I ended up with a sinus infection and a virus at the same time. I am certain I had a reaction to the antibiotics, which I only took for three days before going into sneezing fits and becoming short of breath.

After sitting four hours in the ER, short of breath, they finally tell me that the combination of infection and virus has caused a AECOPD – Acute Exacerbation of Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease. So now I’m on steroids, I lose my breath if I walk to fast or try to talk and walk at the same time.

All the same, we haven’t lost our faith. Some days we find it hard to understand why God allows so much to happen and in so short a span of time but we continue to pray, to put our trust in the lord and do at home what we know we need to, to keep things calm and work on getting better.

I am taking the meds, doing breathing exercises, doing my marching steps and weights and praying that soon, in a day or two, my breath will come back to me as good as it was before. Richard has his ups and downs, his moments of grief, his moments of anger, but he also knows that God is in control.

Sometimes that is the hardest thing for us to try and understand, to accept, God is in control, even during our landslides and the mud will eventually wash away, it is the waiting and insecurity that are the hardest parts.

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