For every black eye that healed, for every bruise and knot on my head that eventually went away, for all the stitches, aching limbs and headaches that are now gone, there were still internal scars that just would not heal over. They were caused by the events that caused all of these injuries and memories of the person who inflicted them. They formed a large knot inside me that just festered and grew.
The nightmares wouldn’t let me rest and going certain places or seeing certain people only brought the memories rushing back in. Certain sounds, certain smells and so much more reminded me of what I had just left, and even though I was safe now, there was a type of paranoia that stayed with me, jumping at certain noises or flinching if someone moved quickly by me.
When I first met him, when he knocked on my door, I wasn’t sure how to act or even talk to him. He asked if he could come in and I allowed him to enter. We started talking and he told me he loved me, he wanted to help me but I had to be willing to let go. He suggested that I give it all to him, that I open up and tell him everything.
He showed me the different paths I had gone down in my life, each one different from the previous and including the path I had just closed the gate on, or thought I had. But he explained the gate would never be completely shut unless I could leave that festering knot in my inside me on the other side.
Then he showed me another path, much narrower and unknown from the ones I had already gone down. He explained this was the path, the only path I ever needed to go down. Even though it was narrow, and there might be tough times ahead, he promised he would be right there next to me, guiding me, holding me up when I didn’t think I could go any further, loving me all the way and showing me so many wonders on the way.
And who is this stranger that knocked on my door? Who is this that took all my burdens upon himself, took away my pain and sorrow and helped me find the joy in life? Who is this that leads me down this straight and narrow path? It is Jesus, the one who has forgiven me of all my sins.
Is he knocking on your door now? Will you leave him standing there, or will you invite him in and let him lead you down the straight and narrow path that will eventually lead to heaven and eternal life?