Yes, it is actually a word. I didn’t think it was, I thought it was something that someone made up, but the online dictionary defines it as “to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate”. I think this pretty much describes what has been going for quite awhile.
This is the reason I haven’t written for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, I have a whole list sitting in front of me of subjects that I feel I should write about, but for the last few weeks it seems that when I decide to write, things start getting discombobulated.
So, is it an outright attack from Satan? That is possible or it could just be one of those levels we all have to go through from time to time when things seem to get out of hand. I have to say, at the least, the last few weeks have worn me out. It seems that even on a “free day” (ones that wouldn’t normally have a run to the store, no doctors appointments and “thank God” no ER visits) something interferes with being able to sit down and write.
It’s almost like time has been slipping away. I finally think I have a few moments to write and take a look at clock and it’s time for bed because we have an early morning appointment the next day and I cannot function unless I get at least 6 hours of sleep.
Just when I would think things were calming down, we would have to run to the store because we were out of something, or we were up late the night before and end up sleeping later than usual, or our medical and/or physical problems start acting up. I have sat down, I don’t know how many times to write and the computer would freeze up and I couldn’t get anything done. That is so frustrating.
Other times I seem to have a plethora of calls to make concerning the ordering of medications, setting up appointments, checking on people or I have to look up a bunch of information on new conditions, medications and such. Then there is the weather. With the rain and humidity we have been having “Arthur” has been acting up and the “migraines have returned”.
I’m not making excuses, I am simply stating facts. God did not promise that life would be perfect down here. The only promise of perfection is when we get our glorified bodies in heaven and come back to rule with Jesus and even then, during the 1000 year reign, sin will creep back in and Satan will make another appearance. It will be short lived and we will then go to live permanently in heaven, oh how I look forward to that.
We are supposed to be thankful for the trials and tribulations we go through for they are often a test of faith. We are also to learn lessons from all the bad we go through. I’ve heard people over the year say that when Satan attacks it’s because God is getting ready to do something in your life or Satan is angry because you are doing what God wants you do.
I will admit that I have learned a lot in my life. Not only have I acquired patience, I have learned, for the most part to curb any feelings of hatred or anger and I have learned how to survive. After some of things that I have gone through, I don’t think there is much more that can be thrown at me that I couldn’t get through.
I thank God for my discombobulated days because they alert me to the facts that I need to do some things, like organize better, be prepared for the unexpected and it also tells me that God considers me worth testing. He’s always here with me, this I know.
How we react to this crazy life tells others a lot of what type of person we are. I want to be the type of person that God can use whether it is to show kindness, help someone or be an example to someone. If he can use me in some way to bring someone to repentance and acceptance of Jesus, then I am all for it, no matter how long or how bumpy the ride might be
Isaiah 40:28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.
Isaiah 40:31 But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.