I know I haven’t posted for a long time. It’s not that I am uninspired, it’s more of a time factor lately. I don’t even know where to start. Phrases like “the light at the end of the tunnel” and “ the path out of the valley” cross my mind but right now I don’t think either one of these apply.
I’ve tried to always be upbeat about most things. I’ve tried to set an example of having a positive outlook for every day. Even when things go wrong, I try to pick out blessings to share and to uplift my spirit also, but this last year often seems like a landslide that just won’t end.
I try not to complain because I know I don’t like when others are always complaining. I try to let God be the one I complain to, no, talk to. This last year has been a long lesson in realizing that no matter what we might say or do, or how we might try to control or change things, in the end “God is in Control”.
There are times in our life where we suffer because we did things our way, we didn’t listen to the prodding of the Holy Spirit, we thought we knew best, and we pay the price for our stubbornness. But there are also times where things happen that are not the results of our own actions.
So many times I’ve read and heard that we are tested. That when things happen that changed up or interfere in the way we normally do things, we are to garner strength and knowledge from them. We are also supposed to be an example to others when we go through these valleys.
This last year has been one of the longest valleys we’ve been through, and we still haven’t seen the pathway out or “the light at the end of the tunnel” and I have asked so many times “Lord, when?” I talk to the Lord many times a day and he has given me strength and patience to help me through these trying times, but if I am to be truthful, lately I’ve wanted to shut out the world, crawl in a hole somewhere and pull it in after me. I know that’s not being a good example.
We’ve missed out on doing “summer” things for the last two years because of health and medical issues and this year isn’t looking all that great either. My garden plot for my container garden is still marked off and waiting and I still would like to get a few more plants for it, but that is low on the list now.
I’m not going to get into all the details of this valley because my goal is not to bring anyone down, but to uplift any that I can. I find blessings in everyday, but sometimes there are those days where I where I just want and end to the valley to be in sight.
The hardest part of this valley was the recent death of a very kind, loving and Godly relative. We watched her go from being vibrant, loving and funny six months ago to having to have someone come in and take care of her three months later, to being bed ridden in two months and then going into an almost comatose state five days before she passed away.
The pain of losing someone you love is like no other pain in the world. It is worse than any medical or physical pain you can feel. Research has shown that medical and physical problems can cause emotional problems like anger, depressions, sorrow and fear, and in reverse these emotions can cause more medical and physical problems. It’s a vicious circle.
I’ve been down this path before, but Ken didn’t suffer as this person did. I don’t understand why the Lord let her suffer the pain she was going through and even in an almost completely comatose condition, she still cried out in pain when they had to bath, change and move her. I think the pain I felt was doubled this time watching other people I care about suffering the same anguish I was feeling, but I know somewhere down the line he will use her death to reach or help someone else.
We are still grieving and we aren’t seeing the “light at the end of the tunnel” or “ the pathway out of the valley” yet. A new and dangerous health condition has presented itself so we are on another journey, trying to stay positive and respond with faith in God. No matter what this may bring, we have come to realize that no matter what the circumstance “God is in control”
I’m believing that he will bring us out of this valley soon, even with the new problems that have come to light because he has seen us through so many valleys before.
I encourage you to remember, no matter what your circumstances, no matter what valley you are going through, if you have received his son “Jesus” , if you believe in the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, to look for the blessings in each day, for even when you walk in the valley, they are still there, and he is still beside you and will lead you to the “light at the end of the tunnel” or the “pathway out of the valley”.
If you don’t know the son, now is the time to correct that, by repentence of your sins and just asking him to come in. Revelations 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Isaiah 41:10 – Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.